Two years ago I made the New Year’s resolution to “be authentically me”. I’ve always been the shy type and it takes a while for me to come out of my shell. For a long time I wasn’t totally myself. Since making the resolution I have tried my hardest to fulfil it. 2016 was a difficult year for me. I was in my final year of college when my first long term relationship ended and for the first time in my adult life I was forced to be independent. I was shocked but in reality that low point in my life was the best thing to ever happen to me. Without anyone to rely on I had to suck it up and do it all myself. I’ve always been someone who enjoys being alone anyway but there was still a sense of new found freedom. A few months later I had booked a 5 month TEFL to Vietnam and could hardly recognise myself. Between then and going I met my wonderful current boyfriend who was the driving force behind that leap of independence but that’s a whole other story.
In Vietnam I met the most incredible people, I grew as a person and discovered more about myself. My travel posts document my solo travel, something I never thought I would do. When I returned home I got a new job, one which helped me build my confidence further and confront the social anxiety still lingering.
Which brings me to resolution number 2; staying on top of my anxiety. In the past few years I’ve come a long way, but now and then that anxious feeling takes hold when I get too stressed or have a big decision to make. It can be tough because it’s not necessarily directly connected to the source of stress and more a general frenzy about life itself. Over the last while I have developed a few relaxation techniques which I plan to explore more in another post. But this resolution is looking at more preventative measures, understanding triggers and taking better care of myself mentally.
Speaking of posts, number 3 is to write more (consistently?). I love my travel thread at the moment and I’d like to do more things similar to it. The plan at the moment is to do a Topic Tuesday every month. I’m going to pick 15 or so topics, draw them out of a hat (for unpredictability) and write a piece on it to give myself a challenge and shake things up for you!
Also on a sidenote to anyone’s who’s been reading the last year thank you for your support!
Here’s to getting through 2018 🥂